loser post

I wanna learn how to play Cabal. Eek! Help?

I wanna kill myself too. But they won't let me.

Clueless.

Told y'all this was a loser post.

You still love me, riggght?

W0oh..

Our visas arrived yesterday! :D And guess what? WHAT? 10 freaking years ang binigay sa amin! :)) Cool huh? I didn't expect that though.. Kasi I thought they would give us 6mos lang kasi our getaway's going to happen at december pa. -_-" I mean.. That's so cool riggght?

Flashback: It was a friday and we were having a long exam in Math17 that morning. Our interview was scheduled at around 2.00PM so I havta leave by 8AM to arrive at Muntinlupa at around 10AM and leave Muntinlupa by 10.3oPM so we can arrived at the embassy by 1.0oPM. Anyway.. I was rushing through the questions sa long exam just so I can leave as early as possible which was SO not cool kasi I only got a freaking 80% sa long exam na yun. -_- Anywho.. I left early as my mom told me to do so..

The bus ride was slower than usual. They were trying to get as much passengers as the can kasi it was a morning and I think that's just how they roll when it's pretty early.. I arrived late sa bahay. I think it was around 11PM na when I got there. I thought my Mom was going to yell at me and all those things kasi I was late but na-uh.. I was surprised to see her eating na and she told me to eat na din kasi we weren't eating until after the interview.

I didn't know the details pa as to how to answer the consult so they briefed me during the car ride. I fell asleep pa nga kasi it was a very very long ride. We picked my bro up pa in a street somewhere.. Ugh. I forgot the street's name na. -_-" Anyway.. Sa trip lang na yun ko nalaman na may Cafe pala ang Mrs. Fields. :D HAHA. xD Loser much? Sahreee..

Finding a parking lot was so hard we havta wait pa for another car to pull up. After successfully parking, we went out and crossed a very busy street to the embassy.

I was shocked. Guess why? Nah.. I know yer guesses are all wrong so I better tell ya myself. :D Anyway, I was shocked. Kasi.. Outside the gate were lots of military men wearing military uniforms with the guns and everything. At first, I thought.. This is cool. Pero.. My thoughts were quickly altered when they began to talk to the people in a rude manner. I guess they were trained that way pero.. I don't think it's right either. The people they were talking to were executives and at the peak of their specializations and they were freaking scolding at them. Fuck them. -_-" I mean.. They should be trained to be a little more courteous.

So there was this line outside and we lined ourselves up. We ended up in a room ventilated by fans where we had to wait for our number to be called. The ambiance was tiring. -_-; When it was our turn na we had to do line up once more for the finger scanning process. It was dreadful man! >_< style="font-style: italic;">very VERY hard time in following the person giving instructions. I started to ask myself if we were in the right place kasi people were so dumb. Anyway.. We had ours scanned and it turned out fine naman daw. (0o,) w00t!

Now we're headed to the air-conditioned room na which I thought would be quite refreshing. Pero.. Hold it right there peeps! It was fuckin' congested. -_-; Filled with people who were with us sa line kanina. And it was depressing. o.O So we waited for our turn na lang din which was quite faster than usual. When it was our turn to be questioned, we went to this panel thingy.. And this is how our conversations turned out to be:

Consult: Hi there! Are you a family?
ME: *talking to meeself* DUH!?
Nanay: Yeah.
Consult: Okay.. Beth? How old is your school?
N: 13 years.
C: How many teachers do you have?
N: 14 teachers and I have 3 other staffs.
C: Are you the principal?
N: Yes. And I own it too.
C: Why are you going to the US?
N: We're planning to visit his(tatay) sister and to take a vacation this december there.
C: And where are you planning to stay?
N: Nevada, her sister's house.
C: *talking to my dad*Is your sister an american citizen already?
Tatay: No, not yet. But her husband is.

... (and so on and so forth)
fast forward to me :D

C: Ana?
ME: Yeah?
C: How old are you?
M: 15. I'm turning 16 this year though.. :s
C: So you're studying at the U of the RP..
M: Yep. :D
C: Aren't you too young to be a college student?
M: I know, riggght?
C: Haha, so what are you studying?
M: Applied Mathematics. :>
C: Do you know your Calculus?
M: Yep.
C: Okay.. Can you define a derivative?
M: *laughing* I can't. I don't memorize stuff.
C: Do you think I do? *laughs*
M: I don't think so. :))
C: Cool. Cause I don't. :D

Tada! :D Cool huh? :>

Well.. I havta leave soon. I have to interview someone pa in Makati before going to elbi eh.. :D

See you guys round! (I promise to write as much entries as possible this week.)
Btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBIN KIRSTIE PIRAMIDE! :D

Bukas na yung open letter. ;)

Byyye! :-h

drats part2. :D

Flashback: I wasn't feeling that good for the past 4 days. I didn't know what to do at first. I didn't even know what wut was happening to me rather what was happening around me. -_-" Pathetic. What a way to live nga naman.. But who cares? Nobody. :D And this emo-ish state led me to.. (Of course I didn't slit my wrist or anything, you dum-dum. >_<) Anywho.. It led me to.. Nothing. I was a total mess.. Erm.. That went out wrong.. I wasn't a total mess! My thoughts were. So lemme rephrase that: My thoughts were a total mess. There.

WhadidIdo: I asked a whole lot of people if indeed I was making that someone unhappy. -_-" Is there any other way to deal with this mess? Hmm.. Adunthinkso. O0h.. Instead of saying someone over and over again, I guess imma have to give that someone an alias. Before I used L for another someone riggght? :D This time, it's going to be.. R. :P Kewl. R it is.

Continuing on.. I asked a lot of people nga 'di ba? Although it wasn't supposed to be such a big deal that I should go gaga over the idea, it bothered me as much as it could bother anyone who cares for everybody's feelings. Got that honey? I'm sure you didn't. ;)) Anyway.. Their answers weren't that hard to take in. As much as I would like to elaborate, I can't. :D They freaking read my blog yo. :)) And I can't afford to give 'em a clue as to what I'm thinking right now.

Their answers were the same mostly due to the fact that they're very if not reaaaally close to R.

And so.. I am therefore concluding that I am not making R unhappy. Maybe just a bit confused about how my thoughts vary from that of how R thinks pero.. I think that we gonna do just fine. :) There. There. There. I feel a whole lot better.

Flashforward: Everything turned out to be a-okay. :P (Hope so.)

Current state: Happy. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AILEEN KARLA VILLAHERMOSA!

O0h.. We aren't that close so puh-lease don't expect me to write another open letter. :))

This is currently the last day for August. Well.. August has been the best month of the school year for me. Uh. That's as of now and is prior to change as the year goes by. :D

Ohwell, who cares? :))

Btw, kanina.. The thunderstorm freaked me out. I mean.. I was alone and 'twas getting dark and poof! a genie appeared! Kidding! ^^, NOoo.. I mean.. I was alone and 'twas getting dark and suddenly the sky was colored by streaking white flashes and it was so scary and I was so freaking scared. >_< That was a run-on sentence. :D Anywho.. I was reaaaaally scared so I texted everybody na lang as to lessen my fear. :S

But the night ended just fine. There. :D

O0h.. Ran out of words! :))

Ciao! :P

Drats. o.O

We watched a play entitled Tution Impossible. It was okaaay.. I guess. ;) Erm.. 'Nuff said. >.<

I've been feeling depressed for the past 4 days now. Do you wanna know why? >_<

(Long pause.)

I think i can see you're heads nodding in approval so I guess imma have to share about it. :-"

Uh. Have you ever felt like you're very near into achieving something? Like.. Andun na eh. Kung kailan suuuuper lapit na, bigla lang mawawala? Erm.. Hindi naman nawala.. Andun pa din pero parang nagfafade na. Kinda. Adunno.

What would you guys do if you feel like you're making someone feel uncomfortable, erm.. Not reaaaally uncomfortable, just sad. Like.. You're making someone sad. There. Erm.. what would you do?

In my case.. I asked a whole lot of that someone's friend if i'm making that someone happier or not. -_-" and they told me..

Secret muna. :D Imma share it next post. ;)

The embassy trip? Next post na din. :))

Ttfn. :P

ang bilis..

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK DE MESA! :D

Secondly.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARVIN DE MESA! :P

Yepep, you got that right. Magkapatid sila na pareho ang birthday. :)) Cool right? I mean.. Ang saya nun! I guess.. :)) Tipid sa parents tapos.. Parang.. There's this connection between the two of you dahil pareho kayo ng birthday.. Uh. I can't explain eh. Pero I guess you know what I'm talking about. Riggght?

An open letter to Mark:

Dear Mark,

Hey there! Musta naman sa La Salle? HAHA. I know you're happy over there. Sino ba naman ang hindi matutuwa kapag nakapasok siya sa dream school niya di ba? At na makapagsuot ng ID na maganda. At gumamit ng elevator papunta sa classrooms.. HAHA. I hope, you've found companions to be with you through hard times over there. Alam mo namaaan.. Wala na kami ni James dyan. :D

Haii.. Medyo matagal na din tayong hindi nakakapag-usap. Sa bagay.. Busy ka dyan sa La Salle at ako naman, wala sa Muntinlupa. Siguro kung La Salle din ako, halos araw-araw tayo magkikita kasi sa isang bldg lang naman halos iikot ang buhay natin. At siguro.. Makakalabas tayo nila James tuwing weekends. Pero.. Hindi eh. Nandito ako sa probinsyang ito. :)) Pero okay lang. Masaya naman. Madaming nang bagong friends. Madaming magagawa. Masarap matulog. :)) Anyway.. Hindi naman kita sinulatan para magkwento tungkol sa akin. Kayaaa.. Ititigil ko na ang sharing. Imma reserve it for our next reunion. :P

Ohwell. I just wanna thank you for being there for me. You know.. For being a friend through our hard times sa school. For lending your ears for my endless rants over small childish things. Thank you for sharing your problems with me, it showed me how much you trusted me. I know that i've not always been the perfect tropa for you pero I guess.. We had fun naman. :D Riggght?

I'd always treasure those moments na we talked seriously about each of our problems and when we talked about our crushes. And when we talk about all those girls who has a crush on you? :)) Pathetic. Ginagamit pa akong bridge. :)) Anyway.. I just wanna tell you that you are one of the best things that happened to me during high school. My HS life wouldn't be the same without your presence. :) Iba talaga kapag kasama ka sa buhay buhay lalo na pag pauwi na. HAHA. :)) Naaalala ko pa na excited ka na talaga umuwi kasi ayaw mo na sa MunSci. :D HAHA.

Mahaba na ata ito masyado. I guess I havta see you soon. :D Hindi ko pa naibibigay gift ko ehh.. Keepsafe dude. I'm always going to be here for you kahit na mapalitan na ang aking lugar sa buhay mo ng mga new found friends mo dyan sa La Salle. Happy Birthday ulit! :D

Goodluck sa exams mo this coming week. ;)

Palaging cute,
ANA.

Whew! I guess.. That's it. The embassy trip? Next post na. :>

and it continues on..

W0oh.. This week has been one of the best weeks ever! Guess why? HAHA. xD Bet you couldn't. Of course you can't. How could you? -_-" Ugh. Nonsense talk once more. :)) Erm.. Going back.. This has been one of the best weeks ever! Hmm.. The reason: No ENG2 classes! :)) 'Twas suppose to be our writing break. Pero.. NO WAY. We didn't use our time wisely. For me though.. I did a lot of things. Pero.. No ENG2 included. Uh. I spent most of my time this week with Kris, Joseph and Merryl.

Tuesday: Walang ENG2 kaya 2.30 kami nakalabas.. Tambay lang sa Men's Dorm kasama si Joseph at Kris tapos sumakit ulo ko kaya nakihiga ako sa kwarto nila Merryl. :D

Wednesday: After classes, nakipagdate kami sa library. :) Then.. We watched a documentrary required of us til 'round 9PM. :D

Thursday: Tambay lang din sa Men's Dorm after classes kasi walang ENG2! :P

Friday(Today): After, Math17, lumuwas na kagad ako. Which was like.. 8AM in the morning? :)) Kasi we had to go to the US embassy for our interiew. (Details tomorrow.) After the interview, dumeretso ulit ng Los Baños-arrived at around 8PM.

Uh. That was fun. No ENG2. No hassles. No deadlines for the week. No whatever. :)) It. Was. Fun.

Erm.. I know you missed me a lot. :) Don't deny it peeps. Don't worry, I'll to write more the next week. Been saving my allowance for something kasi eh.. :P

Buhbye! :-h

ang buhawi sa elbi. ;)

Erm.. Can't find a picture over the net so imma ask mark to transfer the picture from his phone pa. ;) Imma edit this na lang and add the picture, ayt? :D

Um. It all started with Joseph.. Na-uh! The whirlwind didn't start because of him! HAHA. XD Rather, we all stopped and stared at the gusts of wind because Joseph told us to do so. It caught his attention kasi while we were walking towards my place. :)

Picture this: The clouds were circling and were moving reaaally fast forming this "whirlwind". Tagalugin na natin. :)) Uh. Nung una, natutuwa kami kasi ang cute tignan. Tapos makikita mo yung mga dahon-dahon na umaakyat sa hangin at nakikisabay sa ikot at hampas ng hangin. Tinatangay yung mga maliliit na elemento ng mundo na tinatawag nating buhangin. HAHA. Erm.. Masaya talaga siya tignan. Kaso kinalaunan natakot kami(este.. kami lang pala ni joseph yung natakot.) Si Ichi kasi, vinevideohan pa. Si Bert, parang wa pakialam sa nangyayari. Ayun. Binilisan namin lakad namin. Nung medyo malapit na kami sa dorm ko, tumingala ako tas napansin kong nahuhulog na yung ulap sa amin. As in makikita mo talagang bumabagsak sa'yo.. Erm.. Basta. Kakaiba. :D Uh. Nung time na yun, hinila na ko ni Joseph at medyo napatakbo na kami. Isipin mo ba naman? Baka matangay kami nun ng wala sa oras.. -_-"

Funny nga eh.. Yung conver namin:
Joseph: Ana. Tara naaa...
Ana(tumatakbo): Eto na nga ehh.. Huling balita ko ipo ipo tawag dyan tol eh.. :))
Joseph: Sabi ko nga eh. :))

Pag dating namin sa dorm, nakatingin lahat s kalangitan. Tila, may kababalaghang nangyayari. :)) Edi, napatigil din kami at nakitingin. Ayun. Yun pala, may buntot na ang ipo ipo namin. At bumibilis siya. Lumalaki ng paunti-onti ang katawan niya. >.<>.< Um. Pero sabi nung peeps na nasa D.L. Umali at that time, straight na straight daw yung kidlat na yun. Tapos tumama sa isang bundok. -_-" Umusok daw yung tuktok nung bundok after. Ang cool nu? Wish I was there to see it. That would be SO awesome! Riggght?

The next day, Joseph who lives outside campus told us that there were infrastructures that were affected by the "cute whirlwind". Erm.. Flagpoles were bent, houses were destroyed in a way and branches were everywhere! o.O I hope the whirlwinds won't come again. Kasi while we enjoy the view, the less fortunate people suffer. Which brings me to another point..

Face it. Our ozone layer's messing up already. And guess what? We aren't doing anything about it. We become part of "Green Calls". I made that up(Green Call). Erm.. Kasi naman di ba? Lahat na sila, help save the earth. I mean.. Yeahyeah, we have this save the earth logos and signs up for grabs. But seriously, are we reaaally helping our mother earth? Mayday mayday mayday, we're up for the battle here guys. It's getting serious na. What if we live up to the day wherein the sun burns us to death or something. I know.. I know.. I'm being sarcastic, pero seriously.. It may happen. It can happen.

Ugh. This entry's kinda long na. Imma end it sooner or later. :P

Or maybe I can just end it right now. ;)

pinapasagutan ni mark(porks) :D

Para sa mga bored sa buhay. :D

1. Student number?

+ ­­­2008-1006_

2. College?

+ CAS

3. Ano ang course mo?

+ BSAM

4. Nag-shift ka ba o na-kickout?

+ Uh. NF ako. :))

5. Saan ka kumuha ng UPCAT?

+ Sa diliman. :D Math bldg yun ehh..

6. Favorite GE subject?

+ F*** ENG2. Siguro math1 na lang. :P

7. Favorite PE?

+ Ugh. Lecture palang kami this sem. ¬_¬

8. Saan ka nag-aabang ng hot chick sa UP?

+ 3 words: What the fuck?

9. Favorite prof(s)

+ o0h.. Sir Esteves! :)) [baby, you're so beautiful! to the right, to the right..] \m/

10. Pinaka-ayaw na GE subject.

+ ENG2. Ugh! ~x(

11. Kumuha ka ba ng Wed or Sat classes?

+ Erm.. Wala ako pag sat. :D

12. Nakapag-field trip ka ba?

+ Di pa.

13. Naging CS ka na ba or US sa UP?

+ Erm.. Di pa nga tapos 1st sem eh.. :>

14. Ano ang Org/Frat/Soro mo?
+ Wala. :P

15. Saan ka tumatambay palagi?

+ dorm, mb, fpark at lately sa mens.

16. Dorm, Boarding house, o Bahay?

+ Dorm ba tawag dun sa tinitiran ko? o.O (Gusto ko ng bahay. :D)

17. Kung walang UPCAT test at malaya kang nakapili ng kurso mo sa UP, ano yun?

+ BS Math. :P

18. Sino ang pinaka-una mong nakilala sa UP?
+ Na hindi schoolmate? Erm.. Si Prince ata.

19. First play na napanood mo sa UP?
+ Wula pa. T.T (di pa ko nakakapasok ng D.L. umali hanggang ngayon.)

20. Name the 5 most conyo orgs in UP

+ Erm.. >_<

21. Name 5 of the coolest orgs/frats/soro in UP.

+ Uh, next question please? -_-"

22. May frat/soro bang nag-recruit sa yo?
+ Wala! Wee.. XD

23. Saan ka madalas mag-lunch?

+ Sa dorm or fc. :D

24. Masaya ba sa UP?

+ Hell yeah! Lalo na pag kasama mo mga kaibigan mo. ;)

25. Nakasama ka na ba sa rally?

+ Hindi ehh.. At mukhang wala pa kong balak makisama. :))

26. Ilang beses ka bumoto sa Student Council?
+ Hindi pa ko nakakaboto. :D

27. Name at least 5 leftist groups in UP

+ Erm.. Meron bang ganun?! XP

28. Pinangarap mo rin bang mag-laude nung freshman ka?

+ Este ngayong freshman ako? HAHA. XD Yeah, nangangarap. Pero mukhang malabo na dahil sa ENG2 ko. T-T

29. Kanino ka pinaka-patay sa UP?

+ W00t. No comment. :))

30. Kung di ka UP, anong school ka?
+ DLSU-M T-T

*tagged by mark*

so cool.

Maaaring ang iba sa inyo ay hindi pa nababalitaan na nagka-ipo ipo sa los baños. -_-" Twas cool. 'Nuff said.

Tae. Nababadtrip ako lately sa mga self-centered people. I mean.. Ugh! Can you relate?

They think they're so cool, so fly, always correct, has the right to criticize a lot and stuff like those. When in fact they're so lame, so irritating, not always right, full of pride and so freaking irritating! Oops! I think I said irritating twice. -_-" Did I? Stupid. Anyway.. Idfc.

Plan A: Erm.. Imma let them be that way na lang. That's who they are eh.. Why bother?
Plan B: When it's way over too much, imma have to tell them. Riggght? :D

Anyway.. The thing is.. My mom told me last night that I was self centered myself. Well.. In the sense that I don't text them every night and they end up thinking too much about me. They told me that they're my parents and that they have feelings too and I was the bunso and stuff like those. And I felt bad, in a way.. Because I realized that since I've entered college, I haven't talked much to them. Oh,erm.. Lemme rephrase that for you, I do talk to them. But it's just about my problems sa school.. A little kwento over here and there but not the talk-talk-talkthing I did back in HS. And I realized one more thing, I don't text them, rather, I don't buy myself load to text them.. But when it's with my friends? Nag-uunli pa ko. Which is kinda selfish, minding that my parents work hard for my allowance. Erm.. 'Nuff said.

The point is.. May naalala ako. May nagsabi kasi sa akin dati na ang isang tao ay kung ano ang ayaw niya. Erm.. Didn't get it did ya? :)) Lemme explain..

For example, ayaw ko sa mga self-centered pero ako - Self-centered. Getget? Like.. Halimbawa, ayaw mo sa backstabbers, backstabber ka din. Woah. Hold yer negative/violent reactions right there! I'm not saying that it's applicable to everybody. In a sense, hindi rin ako naniniwala. That thought just hit me hard when my mom told me that I was self-centered.

Anywho, I don't believe it's really true - the you are what you hate thingy. Kasi.. I myself, hate liars, backstabbers and such people. Erm.. Face it, everybody LIES. ¬_¬ Well, I'm no backstabber, ayt? Ugh. 'Nuff 'bout that. Naisipan ko lang naman ishare. ;)

The thing is..

Wala na. Wala na kong hinihintay pang mangyari. Ang mga inaasahan kong mangyayari, gumuho nang lahat sa harap ko. Bakit ganun? Ba't kailangang umabot pa sa ganito? Tae. Nag-eemo na naman ako. HAHA. XD Ititigil ko na ang pagdradrama ko. Alam ko namang hindi yun ang habol niyo sa blog ko. Alam ko naman din kasi na walang naghahabol sa blog ko. Tae. Bakit hahabulin, di naman tumatakbo? :))

W00t. Adik na ko. Erm.. Adik nga ba ko? Adik saan? Adik kanino?

(Long pause.)

Kanino? Kanino. Haii.. Ayoko na. HAHA. XD Next topic na lang.

Uh. Ngayong linggong ito, masaya naman. Nakakatuwa ang ilang pangyayari. Nakapaglaro ako ng Soul Caliber3. MASAYA. Exciting nung una. Kaso ang sakit sa hinlalaki. :)) Manhid pa din ng onti hanggang ngayon.

Nagka-long exam pala kami sa Math1. Um. Okay lang. Kayang kaya. Kaso yung logic part? Ang hirap. T.T Ang daming nakakalito. Example:

"Si Kulas ay naglalakad. Biglang bumuhos ang ulan. Wala siyang dalang payong o kaya sumbrero. Pero kahit walang masilungan, hindi pa rin nabasa ang kahit isang hibla ng buhok niya sa ulo. Basang basa naman ang damit niya. Paano ito nangyari?"

o.O SEE THAT? Well.. That was one of the easiest questions dun sa logic part. Some were..

"What is correct to say, the egg of the yolk is white or the egg of the yolk are white?"

In which I got the wrong answer. -_-" You see.. The yolk of the egg isn't color white. Riggght? It's fucking yellow/orangey!!! Ugh! Whatever! XD

HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. Cool huh? Well.. Math1 is reaaaally cool for me right now. Sadly, i know that i'm not going to be satisfied with my score to be. T-T

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I know you guys missed me. :P I know you ALL did. HAHA, kidding. Feeler lang ako. Sorry naman?

Erm.. It feels good to be back from a 4 day hiatus. It really does.

Uh. Lots of stories to tell, very limited time. So, ttfn.